It was till yesterday that love was the best thing happened to me...i knew my love accepted me for whatever i am..all the fallacies in me seemed to be very small infront of the fact that we were in love..Love kept us upbeat..it kept us high..spirits were set ablaze with the realisation of being with each other..It kept me alive..it kept me going...
Never did i know that all of a sudden the love would disappear like this..seems like we never loved each other..seems like it was just yesterday when he said me a hi...just a difference that you now are the most known stranger to me..
I know you are hurt..i know i did a mistake that is unforgivable...but you know i never expected you to punish me like this.i saw this side of you which i thought never existed..i never knew you would undermine me like this. i thought you knew how i am..and whatever be it...our love was enough to tell you that i would never ever think ill of you...
I don't know what it means to hurt a guy's ego..but i do know what it got hurting your ego...
from the day i started knowing you i always knew i would never be good enough for you..I always knew that i will always be a bad mouthed spoiled lass who knows to party and fool around with guys..I thought u knew that i don't remember when was the last time i befriended girls..
And for our love..i thought this was a fairy tale..where it was only about sweet love and laughter..never knew this day would come that all that i remember is this fight..
I thought that u trusted me in the fact that being "us" was the best thing happened to me..and that it was valuable to me..i thought u knew that love for me didnt mean just hanging our having someone to talk to...for me it was sharing..d dreams, the happiness..the sadness..it was about how your presence fills someone's life with happiness and how ur smile makes his day..it was about giving urself to him..it was about letting him know how important he is to u..its about finding peace in d war of world..it was holding each other's hands so that the path of rocks seems like d best beach walk ever...it was like an orchestra where the rhythm of music would have a symphony with the heart's beat..it was about forgiveness...it was about acceptance..it was about complementing each other..it was about being with each other in the worst of the times...
Sadly...the love was just not enough..seems like i hurt you much more than i ever loved you...its like one slip of tongue..a mad pop out of words lead to this sudden death of us...
i so wished you would forgive me for every fallacy of mine..i so wished to be your life's love..i so wished this fairy tale never ended...
but now this has ended..i find no excuses to talk to you..to be around u..to love you...love for u has brought enormous pain and suffering..and i have let your love down..though i never wanted it..it happened..n i regret for it..
I don't expect that u will ever return now..but i do know that i will still wait forever.. i will always love you forever..and that that fit of anger dint mean anything...
I wholeheartedly apologise for my mistakes..please forgive me if u ever can...
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