Rhythm

She lived in a small village up in the Alps...Beauty for her was the bliss that came from the sun shining its first rays in the morning...Beauty for her was in the pearls of dew droplets that glimmered on the ferns..Beauty of her was in walking barefoot on the wet grass..humming songs..as the birds sang by..Beauty for her was in florescent butterfly that made her run in the gardens for long distances..Beauty for her was in the eyes of the beholder...
She swam in the river that passed from the woods..she laughed as her friends played with her..Her eyes twinkled with the brightness of innocence and lips twitched as she blushed..
Long beautiful hair that she tied in a neat bun...and a violet gown that hugged her body made her look like a princess added to the glow and defined the word "perfect"
She had grown up playing in the country side...She had grown up singing in the woods..She sat in the garden talking to her friends..dreaming about the "prince charming" and fantasizing about her romantic nights...
She knew that somewhere in the world..her silent prayers were being listened to..and he was coming to her as fast as he could..ready to sway her by his charm..take her along...and live a life every body would envy for... 

i start to pen down...

This story came  up in my mind at 4am yesternight.. Shaken in faith and devoid of love..i twisted and turned to have one good night's sleep..I dreamt of what perfect love for me was..Maybe it just existed in dreams..Maybe novels and writings were the only place where true love fought over every obstacle and won..Maybe everything in the world is really selfish..and that i had to strive to relive...Maybe it was time to move on...
Thanks to the one, whose love did not materialise ever..i knew i could jot down a few sentences..in my blog..adding life to the love of the character i could create..and letting it win over the world and get her love...
My story revolves around "Rhythm" and "Mark"..who didnot know they would find themselves in the worst of the times...

losing it all...

It was till yesterday that love was the best thing happened to me...i knew my love accepted me for whatever i am..all the fallacies in me seemed to be very small infront of the fact that we were in love..Love kept us upbeat..it kept us high..spirits were set ablaze with the realisation of being with each other..It kept me alive..it kept me going...
Never did i know that all of a sudden the love would disappear like this..seems like we never loved each other..seems like it was just yesterday when he said me a hi...just a difference that you now  are the most known stranger to me..
I know you are hurt..i know i did a mistake that is unforgivable...but you know i never expected you to punish me like this.i saw this side of you which i thought never existed..i never knew you would undermine me like this. i thought you knew how i am..and whatever be it...our love was enough to tell you that i would never ever think ill of you...
I don't know what it means to hurt a guy's ego..but i do know what it got hurting your ego...
from the day i started knowing you i always knew i would never be good enough for you..I always knew that i will always be a bad mouthed spoiled lass who knows to party and fool around with guys..I thought u knew that i don't remember when was the last time i befriended girls..
And for our love..i thought this was a fairy tale..where it was only about sweet love and laughter..never knew this day would come that all that i remember is this fight..
I thought that u trusted me in the fact that being "us" was the best thing happened to me..and that it was valuable to me..i thought u knew that love for me didnt mean just hanging our having someone to talk to...for me it was sharing..d dreams, the happiness..the sadness..it was about how your presence fills someone's life with happiness and how ur smile makes his day..it was about giving urself to him..it was about letting him know how important he is to u..its about finding peace in d war of world..it was holding each other's hands so that the path of rocks seems like d best beach walk ever...it was like an orchestra where the rhythm of music would have a symphony with the heart's beat..it was about forgiveness...it was about acceptance..it was about complementing each other..it was about being with each other in the worst of the times...
Sadly...the love was just not enough..seems like i hurt you much more than i ever loved you...its like one slip of tongue..a mad pop out of words lead to this sudden death of us...
i so wished you would forgive me for every fallacy of mine..i so wished to be your life's love..i so wished this fairy tale never ended...
but now this has ended..i find no  excuses to talk to you..to be around u..to love you...love for u has brought enormous pain and suffering..and i have let your love down..though i never wanted it..it happened..n i regret for it..
I don't expect that u will ever return now..but i do know that i will still wait forever.. i will always love you forever..and that that fit of anger dint mean anything...
I wholeheartedly apologise for my mistakes..please forgive me if u ever can... 

love

When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away...
Movie : Captain Corelli's Mandolin

The Talk of my life...

I dun wish to study today. No doubt i have an important day tomorrow but i am not studying- the reason- i am bored...Some times i just realise how much fun loving i am..how changes are important to me..how life for me is  about moving on..enjoying...living each moment...
This month went a crazy one...handled lots of rejections and saw myself in the quagmires of pain... Exams(which i least bothered about :P) and placements(which still give me anxiety) were the talk of the month.. I enjoyed a few outings with my best friends whom i cherish throughout my life..:)
But something that made my day was mum's visit...and my nonu..:)
I never knew muma would take time from her busy schedule to come and visit me just because i was missing her..that was new to me..hehe
and Vismaad..he seems to have grown up perfect...:) Touchwood...has a prudence worth millions and innocence i crave for today...
Mumz constant nagging over things dint seem bothering me this time...
And the days were made heaven..God's grace is everywhere...he called me to visit him..blessed me vd an eternal gift...helped me realise wats d best fr me..:)
I dun regret not having placed by now..maybe destiny holds d best for me...:)
Just a trial..step by step..i knw it will come eventually..i have no fear for He is there...:)
Papa's face gleams vd serenity and prudence...God keep him blessed always...
And my love..:* hez always d same..loving, caring and witty...God sent an angel to me...
So all these days..i have seen the worst,,,but still Smile beholds in it the strength to shun away worries..thank god i cn smile..:))

OH MY LORD GUD GRACIOUS ARE YOU LISTENING.....???

Dear my God Almighty
They say that you answers all questions...they say you always care for your children..they say you never let injustice happen..they say you love all equally...they say you are almighty...
So God i just wanted to ask you...if you remembered me...i am your child whom you made strong enough to bear extensive pains..But i always thought you were by my side..held my hand..showed me the path..looked for me..cared for me...You never let any bad happen to me...you never let me feel alone..you made my life a heaven with angel like friends of mine..i always smiled...
Well..i know you are some where very near..listening to me..i know you love me..but you see my dear God..i am all alone..i am breaking away..my spirits are getting shattered..and i feel if i lost you...i am lost..in this world..i...a little child of yours..i will get lost in the whirlpool's of this world...
I know you are listening...don't eva leave my hand dear God...i am losing....

Life..iv

So many times in life you know everything is going perfect...and bammm...one incident and the life is torn into pieces..So many times in life you have to smile to motivate your soul that it's gonna be fine...So many times you know the solution, but you don't want to apply it..because it afflicts pain...suffering....So many times in life you get caught in a quagmire of questions..a vicious circle of ifs and buts...So many times you are left helpless...shocked...disheartened...So many times you wanna look up to God who made you so strong to bear that brunt of life...So many times the answer is too conspicuous for the heart to  accept it...So many times..the dreams get shattered..the feelings overpower the words...So many times..love isn't enough for two people to be with each other..So many times fate leaves your heart ripped off...So many times you just tell ur heart that it is gonna be fine..but u knw...that's the end of life for u...bcz wat u wanted in life was no more there for u..bcz u frget that something like love exists..bcz life is all about getting ditched...So many times you just lose faith in love..bcz wen u needed it...ur love left u alone...
But then u learn..u learn to compromise...to smile for others...to smile to frget the ordeal u have been going through..bcz u dun want urself to be known as weak..bcz deep inside ur hrt u knw..that life is concealed..in a viel of smiles n sorrows...left the leaves unfurl..
But the question remains...wud dese wounds ever heal..or u wud just learn living with the pain..
Life is dynamic..the only thing static is change..and u know...its u n u freva..rest is myth...