Unsaid Words...

Some thoughts are better left unspoken. The most b'ful thing in ur life is love.It makes life worth living. Truly said..but every every love story doesnt end well...U may be madly in love with some one..some one who definitely deserves you..some one u thought could be the one you wanted to spend your life with...but yeah..dreams do get shattered...
I wanted him to understand those unspoken words..those deep feelings i cudnot explain him..those desires which were better left unspoken..because the real life didnot have any space for them..i wanted him to love him the way i loved him..unconditionally..not caring what the future beholds for us..for the ecstasy lay in the present.the gift of "today"..the happiness of being with him at that moment...
Well..may be i was over expecting..or may be he is not the one..i always thought love meant spiritual unity..it meant one ness..of the desires that were caught in the fathoms of life...may be this was no love..may be he never loved me..may be i just expected that from him..unknown of the fact that his love was not made for me..i wanted him to change his ways..his habits..forgot that real love meant accepting the person as he/she is..forgot that this was the sign..sign of the fact that we were never meant to be made for each other. May be it is time i should stop bugging him..May be now he needs to live his life his way..find someone who bears with him every moment..forgives him for every anomaly of his...let the destiny decide....

Realisations....

i was born and brought up in a middle class family..my dad's princess..i have always lived a life of riches..no matter what..my parents never ever denied me for anything that i wanted or asked them to get for me..a thing once asked had never been demanded twice..i always had it in the first go itself...i had turned 22...but still never realised this..i was just meant to demand and get my wishes fulfilled...
Well..God does give us a lesson at the correct time...and for me it is this summer internship i am doing rite nw...supposedly still" not doing anything"...if ever i go out to work..i have to go about in the city selling my product..and this is when i realised hw hard my parents work to earn the living..and to make me feel like a princess...
those moments..i saw that day...still captured in my heart...still can overwhelm me..i dunno wat is it to handle responsibilties..but i do know wat it is like to fulfill some dreams someone else aspired for you..doing sthng to make them feel proud of you..letting them know that it is only their love that makes you survive this ruthless world...
To the biggest asset of my life- my parents..i learnt walking holding your hands..i smiled wen u sang songs to me..i dreamt wen those cindrella stories you told me made me imagine things..i owe wateva i am now or wud eva be in my life...
passing thru a bad phase of my life..i am though shaken at my spirits..and confused in my thoughts...but i promise you..i wunt let u down...today or tomorrow...i behold those values u gave me..i promise to behold them thru out my life...my dreams are with you and my aspirations are your smiles...i promise to make u feel proud of ur daughter...

LoVe...

I write about life..and it goes unsaid without love...

Love is the bond that holds us close, is the strength that makes the world go round..is the attraction that is stronger than any other force...

Love..i grew up watching movies..where in i always thought the affairs and love stories were some fictional feelings..n then gradually as i grew up..realised that love was the truth of all times..said or unsaid...it leaves an indelible mark on the heart..it is something that changes our life....

And eventually i fell in love too.... 

With a guy..i always thought would not leave me forever..but alas..we broke up..and as many of the love stories we never got to realise that the dreams we had made never had ourselves being with each other...

And then there came a moment..when everything in this world seemed gloomy, dull and for granted..life had as if lost its meaning...the only word that came to me when i thought of love was disaster...

And then i met someone...so pious, so pure..so mature..so caring..i could trust him for what ever he said..his words had that charm i never thought could exist..i could just be me,,without making him uncomfortable..a stranger that taught me how to live again..some one who did not know what love was..but surely knew what was it to be friends forever...

And we became friends.he held me in times of need..and cared for me as no one would do..

there was a strange feeling of oneness and subtle nuisances of life we shared that we never realised how this friendship turned into a deep feeling called love...

Today i stand here at the moment where i don't know what my destiny has written for me..but what ever it is..to that man..who keeps me alive..who gives me smiles..the love..i know u r the one i would love to spend my life with...i cannot promise to be with you..because my life isnot mine yet..but some day..when i hope to own it..i would wait for you..to hold my hand and accept me as ur beloved wife...

To that man..."je t'aime bien " or "te amo" would sound so less...u r my heart's beat..and my soul's rhythm...you are the precious gift of God almighty..may God bless you..may our love last forever........<3<3<3