The only thing that comes to a person in her primes is "life" and certainly i...like many youngsters , am caught in the intricacies of life...
As a child i always thought what was it like to turn adults, i always wanted to grow up..to feel everything big, to dream big... As a teenager i saw some of the truth's related to life..that life was like a soap bubble...temporary and vulnerable...so delicate that a whiff of air could blow it away...life was a mirage..everything looked certain and vivid..but actually turned out to be a fallacy...
I saw some loved ones leaving..some souls remaining in our hearts forever..and it was then when i thought what is it like to live a life after death....
Years passed and and i left the haven of my mother's arms to start a life..afresh..on my own...a life that for me meant growing "big", understanding what actually the world was...loving and being loved...n experiencing every moment that life gave me...i wanted to fly high..reach the zenith of victories..to feel alive and awake in my own ways..to smile n make other's smile..where animosity, hatred jealousy were never to be seen...where life was pious, where life meant "god"....
Never did i realise that these were some unrealised dreams, these feelings were all my child hood had taught me..this was not what i was meant to be..
For i stand here today..22..a lady who has loved, n was loved, a girl who flew high, a child who knows to smile all around, and make other's smile..but..has lost the sense of oneness, selflessness..benevolence...i now hate, and get hated, desire and snatch the desires... smirk in a smile and deceive in love...i still crave for that haven..i still crave for that prudence..alas..though..has set in a my sycophancy and shrwedness..i intrigue in plans and play with thoughts..i over power the brains,,n dodge the evil...
N still..i say.."i am living life...my own ways,,my own wishes...
Just a matter of fact...i am not happy..i am burning inside...
Just a thing for self realisation...i am all shattered..all broken....
Just a moment of truth..let me be a child again.....
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